A friend in need..

The story that follows is a work of fiction and any resemblance to any person or incident is purely coincidental.

Harish was my best friend. We had been chums right from our early childhood. So when I got to know that he is getting married, I was overjoyed. The girl's name was Dimple. She was a decently educated middle-class girl. The two of them made a great couple. Their marriage was going great and time flew by very fast. Its been 5 years since they got married. One thing was missing though and I could see the stress on the faces of both of them as well as Harish's parents. The couple did not have any child yet. I being his closest friend, his parents too often used to confide in me. His mom once told me to ask Harish if there's some problem in their life and whether all was well in their marriage.

Once when I came to their house, Harish was alone at home and was feeling visibly upset. I asked him what was the matter with him. He said he wanted a favour from me. He had tears in his eyes while telling his story. He apparently had a rare sexual disorder. He had met doctors, psychologists as well as road-side quacks but it was all futile. He is simply unable to get any erection. Even viagra had absolutely no effect on his libido. For 5 long years, he had tried having sex on numerous occasions. But every time he and Dimple  met with only frustration. Its not as if he did not love her or she did not love him. In fact, during this course of time, Dimple has remained very patient with him despite all the frustration. She has also been very faithful to him. "Had it been some other woman, she may have already left me", said Harish and then went silent.

I took a deep breath and lay my hand on his shoulder. "I can understand your problem. Tell me how I can help you out, Harish", I asked. "Aren't you my best friend, Jay?", he looked at me and said, "I want you to do me one favour. Promise me you will do what I tell you to and would keep it confidential". I asked him what it is. He looked straight into my eyes and said, "I want you to sleep one night with Dimple". I was shocked to hear what he just said. There was one long silence. He looked down. I shouted, "Are you crazy? Do you realize what you just said? I mean, I can understand what you are going through but telling me to sleep with your wife?", I started to leave his place. He started pleading with me - "Jay, please don't leave me and don't say no. The only other person to whom I can confide in this whole world is you. Who else do I have. And I know that you being my best friend, will keep this a secret. All that I want from you is to have sex with her, enough so as to impregnate her. Me and Dimple just want one child. Nothing else.", he started sobbing.

I was embarrassed and had no words. Finally I gather some courage and asked, "How are you going to make Dimple Bhabhi agree to this?" Harish cleared his throat and said, "Well, I have already talked to her about this and convinced her. In fact I told her to go out before you came so that I can comfortably talk to you about the plan". I asked him, "So when do you want me to do this?". He told me to come tonight. Also pleaded me to co-operate for next few days and repeat the same if she did not concieve. He said he would leave home before I come. I gave him my home keys and told him to stay there for the night. I told him I will come at 9PM and left from his home.

Once out of his home, I looked at the clear sky and kept wondering what kind of mess I have got into. I thought of Dimple Bhabhi. I had never ever looked at her with dirty eyes. I prayed that it would just be a one-time affair and she concieved the very first time. Time passed by and it was 9. I again thought for a while whether I really wanted to do this? Can't I simply run away and never show my face to Harish? Then I thought again about Harish and his plight. With all these thoughts going on in my mind, I reached Harish's home.

I could see a dim light coming from the night lamp in his front room. Otherwise, the house was dark. With heart beating very hard, I knocked at his door. Dimple bhabhi opened the door and quickly let me in. I could see she was nervous and looking down. I knew I had to bring her at ease and keep my own nervousness away. I had to stop looking at her as my best friend's wife and instead think of her as just another woman. She went to the kitchen and brought some water for me. I felt a bit relaxed after sitting on the sofa and drinking a glass of water. She sat some distance away from me. She was wearing a pink negligee. The backlight coming from the night lamp caused a dark silhouette of her body. Don't know whether it was the light that was playing games with me or was it my mind. But whatever it was, it started having an effect on me. As the light passed through her semi-transparent negligee, I could make out the lines of her lingerie. They were quite well-sized cups. The lovely oval shape of her navel, clearly visible through the cloth was also having an intoxicating effect on me.

For the moment, I forgot all about Harish and his impotence. The only thing that mattered was the fact that I was alone with a sexy woman who in all probability has never had sex before and was craving for it as much as I did. I started developing a firm erection underneath. The silence also was killing me. I drew closer to Dimple and said, "You look very pretty tonight, Dimple". She gave me a nervous smile. My fingers started tracing her hair and then moved gradually to her neck. I then moved the other hand onto her waist. Her body twiched on this sudden contact. She stood up and slowly sat on my lap, facing away from me. This gave my hands a greater access to her upper body while my rock solid penis started throbbing below her buttocks. I started playing with her navel with one hand while the other hand fondled her lovely waistline. By now, she was moaning softly. I pulled down her negligee straps so that there was nothing else other than a pink bra on her upper body. The white complexion of her face had started turning pink and I knew I wanted to smooch her all over her face. I turned her around and slowly let my lips meet hers till they both melted into each other. While smooching she started unbuttoning my shirt while I unhooked her bra. I was now bare chested and her nipples too were right in front of me in full glory. I couldn't wait more to lay my hands on those lovely cherry toppings. Her breasts were firm and kept my hands occupied. Meawhile she worked her way with my pant's zip and belt. It was just a matter of time in which I dropt my pants and freed my huge penis, pulsating very hard. She stood up, held my hand and led me to her bedroom. As we walked, her unstrapped negligee fell off and she was now just wearing a panty. I mischieviously started pulling at her panty and she coyly resisted. Finally I pulled it all the way down to reveal her lovely clean-shaven vagina. We both stared at each other for a while as we stood right in front of each other completely naked. She then dropped down on her bed, face down. Her lovely buttocks were a treat to my eyes. As she rolled over, she called me with her fingers. I fell next to her on the bed. She was tender with my erect penis and fondled it with care as I ran my fingers around her vagina. She shuddered as I touched those pink lips between her legs. She opened them up further by spreading her legs. It had turned completely wet, ready to take my red-hot rod into itself. I gestured her to sit on top of me and let my penis slowly and gently enter her love-slit. As she started riding me, gently first and then violently, she started heaving and moaning heavily. We had some wild sex for about half an hour after which she gave one loud moan and my love fluid rushed out and filled her completely. I kept going till she begged me to stop. By now she started crying.

As we lay there next to each other, I saw tears rolling down her eyes. This made me think about Harish again and wondered if she had tears of guilt. She broke her silence and said, no night since last five years have been as satisfying as tonight and thanked me for everything. "I wish we could do it more regularly", she said. To which, I replied "I did it just as a duty to my friend and that there is no second time". She said, "Now that we have started, I don't want to end it abruptly. Its been 5 long years without sex". I shot back saying, "It has to end once you get pregnant." to which she exclaimed, "she is not going to get pregnant that easily!" Seeing the question-mark on my face, she smiled and revealed, "I am on pills. I badly want a man's body next to me. Love me for the sake of love, please. Harish just wants me to bear a child whereas I have my own cravings that as you know Harish can't fulfil. He has licensed you to fuck me till I get pregnant. I want more. I want you to compensate for the fun I did not have since last 5 years. Satisfy me for a few more months and then I will myself stop taking pills."

Dimple was hot and I had enjoyed that night fully. I had begun to desire her and thought, "To hell with Harish. I don't want to miss this opportunity of having an affair with a beautiful desperate lady". We that we both had one more violent round of sex that night before we both were fully fatigued and slept.

Next six months, she still was not pregnant and with due permission from my friend, I continued to fuck his hot wife and then finally she missed her menses. However, our affair did not end there. Whenever Harish was away, we both used to meet either at my home or hers. We continued to cheat Harish even after the child was born. Harish continued to be her legal husband while I was her husband for all her sexual needs.

New Recruit

I realized that I haven't been writing much on my secret diary recently. But that's not because I turned disinterested of writing. Its just that not much has been happening lately, that needed to be shared with it. There are times when not much happens. The same dull day at work with not too many beautiful girls around to interact with and to ogle at. On returning home, not too many babes in the neighborhood either. Then all of a sudden, something happens.

It happened in my case, two days ago. Since about two weeks I was aware of the fact that our company has recruited a female employee. For a project full of guys with not a single female, this was a Breaking News. So the suspense was building over the two weeks - Is she hot, is she not? Is she single, Is she married? Finally she arrived. She is not hot, she is not not! She is average. Simple, plain average. But you know what? That's good. I have a special inclination for the average. For, a girl who is too hot is not too accessible. There are a too many guys swarming around her. What's the probability of me hitting the jackpot? The girl who is not may be easily accessible but what's the fun? Average is perfect.

She is married and has a kid. Me, too! Is she fun to be with? Too early to tell. Its been just two days. She is not the kind that gets you attracted at the very first instance you see her. But I can feel myself getting interested in her every time I interact with her. She's got lovely lips, has a mild dimple on her cheek when she laughs. Doesn't have a model-like figure to die for, but has right kind of curves at right places. Particularly, I find her derriere very well-endowed. As always, am not looking for any intimate relationship with her. Just some harmless flirting, that would keep fun alive in an otherwise dull work environment and at the same time does not ruin mine as well as her family life.

My fetish for lingeries

I love watching girls in lingerie. Who doesn't?! When I see girls in tight jeans and T's, I try to guess what brand she might be wearing in there and visualize her in nothing else except the inner-wear. One of my favourite fantasy was getting into a friend's wash-room and finding her pantie hanging there.

So it turns out that I had once gone to a friend's place and I badly needed to pee. But his wife was bathing in there. Once she came out, I immediately rushed in. To my pleasant surprise, when I turned back to open the door after I was done peeing, I saw Priya's (that's not her real name) bra and pantie hanging on the hanger on the door. Apparently she forgot to take them with her after finishing her bath. There I was in the secrecy of the wash-room with the sexy lingerie of my friend's wife. I was feeling guilty of what I was doing. But could not resist it. They were Victoria's Secret. Couldn't believe she had so sexy choices. I had never thought of her in that way. She was pretty but I never had sex thoughts about her, before this incident. But right now, I started imagining her wearing nothing else but that lovely pair of inner-wear! She had a lovely pair of boobs but what I liked the most was the way her ass moved when she walked. And currently I was imagining her walking that sensuous walk in just her hot Victoria's Secret pantie.

I checked the cup of her bra. They were 34D and pink in color. And had a pantie of matching color. Slowly I brought the pantie close to my nose. I could not believe what I was doing. She had worn it just a few minutes back. So the smell of her pheromones were still intact. Oh, man - that was the sexiest smell I had ever smelt. By then, I was feeling very firm down there. I wanted to touch the same spot where her vagina touched her pantie, with my penis. So I brought her pantie in close contact with my erect penis. I was suddenly yearning for her. I started getting the thoughts of me and Priya having sex with each other.

I then realized I stayed in the wash-room for a bit too long. I rushed back out. That day on, Priya was no longer just another woman for me. I was my secret desire.

How I tamed porn-addiction

Firstly, let me reassert what is now a public knowledge. Neither pornography nor masturbation negatively impacts your potency. Having said that, let me add that the two of them have a tendency to become an addiction. So much so that for the addicted individual, it becomes the sole indulgence. The individual can not focus on his/her work, tends to become a recluse and loses his/her self-esteem. Slowly but surely, this addiction has a psychological impact if not physical.

I, once had reached those levels of addiction to both these habits. It feels so very liberating in confiding such personal facts to the internet. After all, you don't know me right?! :-)) What is known to the scientific world about this and in fact all these addictions is that in the human brain, there is a chemical called dopamine. This chemical is responsible for rewards and giving pleasures. So every time you feel a sudden surge of happiness or pleasure, blame or thank this chemical in your brain. What has dopamine got to do with the above topic?

It turns out that when we see a pretty person of opposite gender (I am keeping this discussion strictly hetero. Any readers with other tastes may replace the text accordingly), the dopamine starts playing with the brain. This is the beginning of the whole cycle that leads to you know what! In a way, you can say dopamine brings you into a mood. But there is this thing about this whole cycle of pleasure. You always want more. You are not satisfied with what you had last time. So every next time, you get into wilder thoughts/fantasies than last time. So while the last time, you were happy seeing a shapely babe with lovely breasts, this time you want to see her naked. You gratify this need by a short-cut. End up watching porn. This leads to further boredom with earlier porn-watching experience and you want to watch a wilder porn. This goes on till none of this titillates you any further. In the meanwhile, you have stopped socializing and started losing focus on work. But more importantly, what started off with attraction for the other gender, has now evolved into something else. Now the sole aim in life is to get your dose of instant pleasure. The focus no longer is on the subject (the person who gives you the pleasure). The focus is on the erection and the act of releasing off the cum. This can lead to psychological impotence.

Obviously, for a healthy social as well as sexual life, you don't want all of this. At some stage, I realized I need to break the vicious cycle. And that I did. I proactively made some healthy choices. I encouraged myself to reinvent myself by rediscovering my past hobbies and developing them further. This engaged my thoughts in a different direction. Whenever these thoughts used to drift away to the addiction, I would consciously refocus it back to the new-found passions. It is a tough process. For one long month, I decided to watch no pornography and to not fondle myself down there. While in the past, masturbation was almost a daily routine, I abstained from it, despite lot of wild urges.

It was punishing in the beginning. But I started realizing its fruits in the days that followed. This was almost about 2 years ago. Since then, I am feeling like an all new person altogether. I did attempt watching a porn movie. But I felt averse to the artificial scenes in those movies. The addiction has disappeared.

In the past, my mind was oriented to view women as sluts and toys to give me that instant pleasure. Now this has given way to a feeling of respect for the women. The attraction and its sexual effects continue to be there. In fact, I get even wilder erections when I see a hot female. But the focus is on the female form and not on instant gratification.

I do occasionally watch nude and semi-nude content. But not the hard-core kind. Also, whereas in the past, I used to be in an auto-pilot mode wherein my desire used to control me, now it is me who is in control.

Those wonder years..

Those were the days when I knew nothing about sex, except that for some reason I used to feel funny down there on seeing beautiful girls. I must have been about 8-9 years of age. I was always curious to know what those sweet girls have got that made me feel that way. Good thing was that even the girls my age, with whom I used to play after school also seem to have the same curiosity about the guys around them. So it happened that there was one female my age named Rita (that's not her real name). I had a special crush on her, then. We used to play tag, hide-n-seek and many other games together.

It was during one of those games of hide-n-seek that this happened. Myself and Rita were both hiding in the same secluded place and there were no other guys and girls hiding with us. Its then that Rita lightly rubbed her fingers on my thing. It happened suddenly and I was blushing. She had an idea. She said how about taking turns at getting naked while no one else is watching us? I thought that was a good deal. So she put her hands on my pants and slipped it down. I can see from her face that she loved what she saw. She told me to turn around and I obeyed her, knowing that I will get my turn to have a good look at her. I then put my pants back on and it was my time to strip her. I can not forget the thrill I got on putting my hands underneath her skirt and pulling down her pantie. As I lifted her skirt, I could see her between-the-legs. I knew not, what was about it that got me excited - whether it was the smell or the way it looked. I also did not know what to do after getting her naked. I felt like wanting to touch her there, and that I did. This probably got her scared and she pulled her dress back up and ran away from there. We often used to play this new game for next few days whenever we were alone.

Once we were grown-ups and knew what our childhood games really meant, we both often used to shy ourselves from each other. When I used to look at her, she would often look away and blush, probably remembering our childhood fun together. I also remember those wonder years and fantasize of what fun it would have been to get Rita repeat the same after her puberty. She had grown very sexy and her figure definitely was worth dying for.

My secret love for my friend's wife

At first I thought it was platonic. I liked her company and enjoyed talking to her. We all used to go out together on trips and outings. She has a pretty photogenic face and has a rich variety of expressions and poses that came out spontaneously. This made her my favourite subject for photography - especially the candid ones. It was even more fun sharing those snaps with her. The looks on her face when she used to see those candid pictures used to be priceless.

I can't figure out the point in time since when my liking for her turned carnal. It is not that I intend to make this into a full-blown affair with her. Her husband is a very good friend of mine and they both make a very good pair. But when alone, I can't keep myself from imagining me and her together. She is very sensuous. There is something very erotic about the way she walks. The day she had come to one of our parties, dressed in a red saree. She was seated just next to me and had set my pulse to an elevated level. I couldn't help noticing her lovely navel through the translucence of the silk. I think this could well have been the day when I started feeling sexual about her. Perhaps she knows about my silent admiration for her. Perhaps she also has the same feelings for me. Or perhaps I am just day-dreaming and taking cues from her making eye-contacts with me for a wee bit longer and her tendency to more often sit next to me in any gathering or party. Maybe those are very false cues. I don't know and I don't care. But my love and carnal desire for her is for real.

There is absolutely nothing obscene about her. She is well-dressed and carries herself very gracefully. But you know, men will be men. Can't help admiring a good shapely feminine figure.

Men's Secret G-Spot

I swear I never knew it existed till yesterday night. I'm 37 year old, normal married, hetero-sexual male. Over the years, I have indulged in both self-stimulation as well as normal hetero sex. But nothing could beat the experience I had yesterday night.

While fondling my genitals yesterday, I started to massage the floor between the anus and the penis. It felt good and then I slowly drifted my finger towards the anus and started inserting it into the anal ring. This may sound like a homo experience. But let me re-assert that even the thoughts that I had during this experience were purely hetero, involving a female friend at office. At first, gentle fingering at this opening behind felt quite inviting. So I started giving gentle thrusts into the rectum. But with each passing thrust, the feeling became exceedingly pleasurable. At one point, it became completely unbearable. It was a feeling I never experienced anytime before. All this while, I was not stimulating the penis at all. But the erection was getting even more rock-solid due to the newly discovered anal masturbation. I did not ejaculate from this but what I experienced was a completely different orgasm that I never had in the past. The usual sex or masturbation has never forced a moan out of me. But yesterday, moaned loudly while doing this.

Once I was done, I immediately googled on this and realized that I am not the only one. This erogenous zone is very well-known and there are a lot of articles and blogs on this. Also that this stimulation has nothing to do with homo-sexuality. The anal opening is the closest point of contact with the prostate. Here's an interesting post about male G-Spot you all would like to read:
http://www.askmen.com/dating/vanessa/23_love_secrets.html

Guys reading this post who have not tried this, I recommend you to try this. You don't know what you have been missing. Don't be shy of touching your rectum. Girls reading this post, give this anal stimulation to your partner while having sex and you would have his member spring into action.

About this blog

This blog is meant to share the secret thoughts, feelings and desires of a pretty average guy - completely uninhibited by societal pressures. In our daily life, in order to comply with the societal norms, we tend to put up a decent mask. This is good, otherwise we would be animals. But deep down, we all have some secret feelings.   The aim here, is to keep a dialogue with my own-self and in turn also share it with the readers of this blog. It feels good to discuss such thoughts with people and internet serves as a perfect tool to keep discussions anonymous. Decent and well-meaning comments from the readers of my articles are most welcome. I'm going to keep them moderated to keep away a lot of non-sense such blogs inevitably invite.

I shall ensure that I don't give the real names of any people in my articles to maintain their confidentiality. Also by now, you would very well know the mature nature of the content on this blog. So reader's discretion is advised before proceeding to read any of my articles. I shall abide by the obscenity norms and shall not post anything that breaches them.